I might consider to turn this blog into some kind of fanfic blog.. but then again.. I loose interest so fast so maybe yeah.. jus make this blog unspecified.. Anyway this piece was inspired by 8eight song’s No One Cries Because They Want to.. Btw I was thinking him as in Jang Wooyoung (funny the way I said that I like Jang Geunseok but I always wrote about Udong). But since I didn’t really wrote his name you can think of anyone.
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Title : To Stop Crying
Rating : PG-13 for language
Song : 8eight – No One Cries Because They Want To [Play] [Download]
I wrote this maybe a month ago.. I don’t know when is the exact date.. I wrote this because I miss 2PM.. I terribly miss them.. My hyperactive and dorky babies.. T.T
Anyway the usual disclaimer: Too bad I didn’t own Woo and the rest of 2PM that mentioned in my story. Hell if I own them I would never allowed Jay to go.. Anyway any error in grammar and spelling are expected so read on your own concent.
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Title : Missing Minute
Rating : G
Song : 8eight – Goodbye My Love [Play] [Download]
“If you want, you can always ask me to kidnap you.”
Jandi doesn’t have to turn her body to see who was speaking. She knew the voice too well. She took a quick glance from her shoulder when she heard footstep coming closer. The beautiful man is now standing less then an inch behind her. He stared at her, or stared at her reflection in the mirror to be exact. There was no sound or movement. It was just silence between them. But who need words when they can understand each other just by looking at the eyes?
He’s the one that broke their contentment. He stepped aside and leaned to the table, made his position now facing her. But still, he seems like has no intention to utter the words and the same things goes with her. She didn’t bother to look at him. She continued to do what she had to do. Give final touch to her makeup. She tried to ignore the fact that she knew he was observing every subtle movement of hers as if he savored it for the last time.
She dared not to see him. Not even a quick glance. She even tried to ignore his presence as if she’s alone in this dressing room. Because she knew once she saw those eyes and see how much pain she caused to those beautiful eyes, she’ll forever live with guilt in her heart.
She brushed her cheeks with one more stroke and took the final check of her reflection. She was never good with makeup. It was always Ga eul that help her whenever she needs one. Suddenly the thought of her best friend make her frown. Where the hell is that girl? She said she needed to go to the bathroom and that was fifteen minutes ago. How dare she leave her best friend in her most important day like this? Knowing her best friend is not familiar with makeup and stuff. Just wait when that so called best friend come back, she’ll…
“A bride shouldn’t frown in her wedding day. It’s a bad sign.”
Her trail of thought was broken by the words. Absentmindedly, she stared at the man before her. Now that she looked at him, she realized how breath taking is the man. Given the white tux, he looks like an angel that just comes down from heaven. He looks like prince charming that just walked out from story book. Every girl who dreams of prince will definitely fall for Yoon Jihoo, because he is the living prince. And the prince himself now stands before her.
Do you remember you once told me that the word we said is the spell that we cast to ourselves? If we said that we’re in pain, we will really be in pain. If we said that we’re sad, we will really shed our tears. That’s why no matter how hurt I am, I never said that I’m in pain or that I’m sad, so that I’ll never really be in pain or shed my tears. I just laugh, laugh, and laugh.
But Heechul ah…
Why did people keep asking me why I’m crying when I’m laughing like this?
Heechul ah…
What’s wrong with me? I can’t do anything. I can’t think of anything. I can’t play the piano that I love. I can’t watch the stars that I like. I can’t even walk under the moonlight like I used to be. All I can do is shoving myself into a corner of the room, writting your name over and over again in a piece of white paper, and stop only when it becomes dark and no more space to write on.
Heechul ah…
I miss you… miss you so bad till it hurts… So far in my life, I never felt pain that excruciating like this. Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again. My eyes are filling up with tears eventhough my lips are smiling.
Heechul ah…
I long for you. Without you, I feel like the time isn’t moving. A day is too long… Way too long… It almost feels like eternity.
Heechul ah…
After you left, I think I become a fool. I know that I have to let you go. But no matter how hard I tried, my heart refused to let you go. I know that I should stop crying but I keep shedding my tears. I don’t know if I’m really stupid but still I can’t let you go of our bond.
Heechul ah…
I know that if you saw me right now, you would say words like:
Let’s smile like couples in drama.
Let’s smile like the title of your blog.
Let’s smile happy like before.
But you, no longer here by my side.
Heechul ah…
Did you know that every day I talk to myself and put myself under a spell? I’m without heart; I don’t have heart, so I wouldn’t be in pain. Those words, I repeat it over and over. But even so, why did I keep shedding my tears?
I’m without heart…
I can’t be in pain…
I’m without heart…
I can’t be in pain…
Let’s just laugh… just laugh… just laugh…
Please… please… just stop crying now…
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This writing is based on the song “Without Heart” by 8eight. It also inspired by fanmade video of Heechul and Sohee based on that song (by daydreamer198@youtube)
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don't talk about it so easily.. don't tell me to stop crying.. what do you know about my life? what do you know to say it's a good thing?
