First.

No baby’s news or update that really interest me so here I am making another crappy fan-art..

Another version (more color wise?)

Actually I’m never GD’s fans nor Heedragon shipper.. I always like Sohee with Heechul pairing rather than Sohee and GD.. but because the wonderbang clip that I saw in youtube last night.. I decided to make this poster. I guess they look good together but mostly it’s because Sohee is sooo cute, who ever paired with her will automaticly look good.. kekeke… (Pardon my bias towards mandu.. ) ..

Don’t you think my blending is getting better? kekke.. It’s still crappy work but I guess it’s better than my work before.. And ooh.. the letters supposed to be not like that.. In PS it didn’t look that smooth.. I don’t know why when I save it as JPEG it became like that ..Sigh.. Oke.. I guess it’s time to stop blabbering..

 

Stupid Lovers

made this out of bored.. I guess I’m more good at making cute poster like this.. I’m no good in serious stuff . Love this pair but no one has made a good fanfic of them so I decided to make a poster kekeke… Heenim, this is my present to you

 

Poster for My Fanfic

I made this crappy poster for my long forgoten fic staring Ahn SoHee and Kim Heechul. I admit that I never good at bleding and texturing so that’s why the poster look so damn ugly.. Anyway since I spent lots of time doing this I should just post it up..

The story itself can be found here.  Both story and poster are not that good..

 

Without A Heart

Heechul ah…

 

Do you remember you once told me that the word we said is the spell that we cast to ourselves? If we said that we’re in pain, we will really be in pain. If we said that we’re sad, we will really shed our tears. That’s why no matter how hurt I am, I never said that I’m in pain or that I’m sad, so that I’ll never really be in pain or shed my tears. I just laugh, laugh, and laugh.

 

But Heechul ah…

 

Why did people keep asking me why I’m crying when I’m laughing like this?

 

Heechul ah…

 

What’s wrong with me? I can’t do anything. I can’t think of anything. I can’t play the piano that I love. I can’t watch the stars that I like. I can’t even walk under the moonlight like I used to be. All I can do is shoving myself into a corner of the room, writting your name over and over again in a piece of white paper, and stop only when it becomes dark and no more space to write on.

 

Heechul ah…

 

I miss you… miss you so bad till it hurts… So far in my life, I never felt pain that excruciating like this. Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again. My eyes are filling up with tears eventhough my lips are smiling.

 

Heechul ah…

 

I long for you. Without you, I feel like the time isn’t moving. A day is too long… Way too long… It almost feels like eternity.

 

Heechul ah…

 

After you left, I think I become a fool. I know that I have to let you go. But no matter how hard I tried, my heart refused to let you go. I know that I should stop crying but I keep shedding my tears. I don’t know if I’m really stupid but still I can’t let you go of our bond.

 

Heechul ah…

 

I know that if you saw me right now, you would say words like:

Let’s smile like couples in drama.

Let’s smile like the title of your blog.

Let’s smile happy like before.

But you, no longer here by my side.

 

Heechul ah…

 

Did you know that every day I talk to myself and put myself under a spell? I’m without heart; I don’t have heart, so I wouldn’t be in pain. Those words, I repeat it over and over. But even so, why did I keep shedding my tears? 

 

I’m without heart…

I can’t be in pain…

I’m without heart…

I can’t be in pain…

Let’s just laugh… just laugh… just laugh…

Please… please… just stop crying now…

 

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This writing is based on the song “Without Heart” by 8eight. It also inspired by fanmade video of Heechul and Sohee based on that song (by daydreamer198@youtube)